15 Things You ProbablyNever Knew or Thought About

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

A Minute They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. Send this phrase to the people you'll never forget and remember to send it also to the person that sent it to you. It's a short message to let them know that you'll never forget them. If you don't sendit to anyone, it means you're in a hurry and that you've forgot your friends. Take the time... to live and love.

3rd day of CNY

Not too bad this year.. Recieved quite a number of red packets.. Definitely more than last year.. Of course there are some families that we have not visited, but then there are a few that we never ever did visit during CNY, neither do they come..

CNY, a time for sweets and junk food! Definitely putting on weight this season.. I've been eating lots of bak kua and pineapple tarts.. Yummy! My favourite is the prawn cracker that my uncle fried.. It's the best! Ever since I've stopped work at Marche, I think that I will be putting on weight soon.. Hehe.. Now! I am confirm that I will grow fat!

Had dinner at my Aunt's place.. Never really chatted with my cousins before.. It started during a chess session, when I adviced my cousin on the possible moves he could take.. It then led on to a nice chat about school and relationships.. Never thought that I will ever have a decent conversation with them.. Lolx..

Hmm... Seems like the post have reached 1 more person, therefore another person offended? Haha.. This is getting fun! I wonder who else reads it? Wonder anyone will sue me for defamation? But all written is true, at least to me it is.. =) I'm glad people read it! At least they know how I felt, I'm shy.. Bleah!

My parents always tell me to respect the elders.. I've done that.. Now? I think that respect must be earned.. It doesn't matter if you are an elder or not.. I believe that there are people who thinks that I am rude.. But then I really don't care.. So what if you are an elder? Do you think that I have to listen to whatever you say even if I don't see things the way you do? Anyway I try to be civil as much as I can.. I think I'm not a people person.. As long as I don't like you, you'll get the idea soon enough..

Guess what? I used to think that I'm good with people.. Then as I grow up, it changes.. I think it's because I was naive then.. Some people befriend you not for friendship.. It's really really hard to find a friend in this world.. Maybe it's because I find it hard to trust.. I have friends, lots of them but how many of them really fit into the word FRIEND? None I think.. We only come together cause we need each other during that certain time..

Anyone to prove me wrong? Not at the moment I think..

LTB

So far school has been fine.. My LTB prof is an interesting prof, she mention that a group is different from a team. Let's hope that my LTB group will work towards becoming a team.. Really sad but I didn't have very nice impression of my groupmates on the first day we met. Their first impression of me is that I'm not local and I have a peaceful look? Funny way to describe me. Especially when most people felt that I was fierce and hard to approach when they first met me.. I've changed?

This is week 2 and I come to like some of them already.. One said I was cute.. Lolx.. Act cute you mean? Keke. I kind of like this group, it's actually the very first time I contribute so much in discussion.. I'm always afraid of what people might think of me if I give some stupid suggestions but in this group it feels alright to be stupid. lolx..

Anyway, we are supposed to do a conmunity service project together. I think we are abit behind time, most groups have already contacted their client.. Stress is definity building up as the days past. *Fingers crossed* Let's hope for the best..

Digression

Had a long break this afternoon. Just had lunch with my friends at Kopitiam again! Hate that place but no where to go.. Slacking around, waiting for the next lesson to start at 3.30pm.

All my profs seems really nice right now.. A nice beginning to a new term I guess..

Wah.. I wish the best for this year.. A new beginning, new friends, new profs, hopefully a new job.. Haha.. I'm whining everyday.. Getting kind of irritated by myself.. Sooner or later I will just dislike myself.. Hope to change a new environment, to be a new person..

I miss my old friends!! Can't wait for CNY to come, then we can meet up and visit each other.. I want to play banluck(correct spelling)!! It's been a long long time since I've played Mahjiong!! My hands are itchy!!..

Probably because of my previous post, I've offended some people.. But then I'm not the kind who will keep such feelings in my heart. I know that I'm blunt but this is me.. Don't like it? Then don't read.. =) I'm not sorry for what I posted, but maybe slightly sorry for making others upset.. However, if you can't take this side of me then don't befriend me.. I'll get upset initially but I'll learn to move on.. As I've said before long time ago, I never believe that friends are here to stay.. They come and go.. Leaving is always the sad part but it is part and parcle of life.. shi4 jie4 shang4 mei2 you3 bu4 san4 zi yan2 xi2.

Tomorrow is our 21st monthsary! Just 3 more months and we are together for 2 years.. Loving someone have never been so easy.. We were good friends before we turn couple and now we have proven to people that our relationship is strong.. 1 year plus may not be long but it's the longest relationship I'm in.. This is the very first relationship for him and he definitly did a great job at loving and caring for me. Even when I'm throwing a tantrum, he doesn't leave me alone.. Compromise is very important. Maybe because of him, I'm becoming very dependent on him.. I'm very vulnerable now, cry at little things which I wouldn't have done last time.. However I'm very lucky to have him..

I had been in relationship where the guy was a very very good friend of mine and we knew each other very well at least I thought I knew.. Anyway when the relationship progresses, it just turn for the worse.. I don't know why but I think that some relationship may be better if left as friendship instead. Don't you think so? There are good guy friends that I like a lot but it's just feels not right to progress even if he reciprocated.. Sometimes, loving someone doesn't mean you have to possess him.. If a guy have no plans for the future then what use is it to be together cause, being together would somehow mean having plans that involve the other in their future.. Chim mah?

If I have a boyfriend who is so full of himself and thinks that the girl should give in all the time, then perhaps the relationship is not worth the time.. It doesn't matter how much the girl is willing to give.. All giving and no recieving don't make out a good relationship. Of course there may be a party who gives more than the other but if one just gives in all the time, then what's the point in maintaining in a relationship? It doesn't matter whether the relationship is the first one or not.. So if you want a relationship to work, talking to the other party about your expectations and hearing his would definitely give you a direction of where the relationship is heading.. Checking where the problem lies and solving it together will probably strengthen the relationship.. However if one is not willing to coorporate then perhaps the relationship is a goner..

Opps type too much crap, but since i spent about 20 minutes on the paragraph might as well post it.. don't waste my effort right? ;)

FA

Yesterday morning had to get back to school for FA even though it was a holiday.. Such a spoiler! Spoilt my day.. Initially, I wanted to treat my family to have dim sum in the morning.. Too bad.. I've to postphone it..

Great! The prof asked those who had some accounting background to be group leaders.. I'm seperated from Belinder! Both of us are now group leaders.. I'm the only year 1 and business student in my group!! The rest are from Social science and IS management and all of them are year 2! What a day to start my school term.. Haha..

Hope that I'll have be in the same group with Belinda in the next class.. *Fingers crossed*

Sickening hell of a day!

Had hell yesterday! I've always hated working there.. Now it gives me more reasons to hate work..

Last night, my station was extremely busy and yet the other stations were kind of free.. I don't mind if it is busy and there are only 2 people working in the station, what was making me burn is that no one from those "not so busy" stations came to help.. Actually I've worked busier days but something in me just break when I see no one helping us.. They were chit chatting..

me: "Wah.. my station is very busy.."

colleague: " Yah can see.."

me: o_O!! Then why didn't you come to help?

PUKE BLOOD!!!!

teamleader: "There are usually 2 persons at your station.. There are 3 people in Piazza.."

me: Yeah I know.. But none came to help.. (one came after I complained though..)

Puke out all my internal organs!!

I think I zhuo4 ren2 very shi1 bai4.. See the word colleague instead of friend? I never make any friends at work.. They are all just purely colleagues to me.. Whom only turn to me when they have problems but never let me into the details.. Like what's the use.. Tell me for what? Whom never let me into their fun.. Ok some tried, but I can't stay out late!!!! Sometimes I feel unwanted..

I think I'm getting extremely vulnerable.. Stupid thing happened yesterday.. Wished that it didn't happen.. Now everyone would think that I'm a weak and whiny person.. SHIT them all!!

Some people came afterwards to ask me what happened.. Hypocrites! F*K OFF!! I don't need your pity!

Lately, some of my colleagues always asked me why I looked so tired.. Wanna know why? I dread working there! A few asked my I'm always emotionless or I never smile. Wanna know why?? I wanna look cool! Rubbish! I don't find work any fun.. Never looked forward to work for any reason.. I only worked because I needed the money.. I used to work like an ant now I don't even bother about working so hard for the money.. As long as I have enough, it'll do.. At most I don't spend my money on Luxury!

There is a limit to everything.. I'm not going to point fingers now.. But I feel that most people there are very ugly.. The longer I stay the more I see their ugliness.. Sometimes, they make fun of people till the person is on the verge to cry but they never know when to stop.. Often going overboard.. Still laughing even their eyes are filled with tears.. They will get their retribution some day.. I also think they are very childish to play family in work.. Though they are having fun and who am I to have my say.. But come on lah! How old are you.. The last time I played that was Sec 1.. Someone acknowlegded me as their cousin? So which Aunt just gave birth?

I am actually back stabbing now! Lolx.. Don't care lah.. Who knows they may be backstabbing me anyway..

We were once close, I trusted this person so much when we were younger.. Even though I'm older, I always felt that this person is the older one.. Now thinking back, I felt very stupid for believing everything this person said.. Cause it sounded like lies now.. (I told my Mum and she said that trusting someone is not stupid..) People asked why we hardly talked.. There's just nothing to talk about.. Talking to this person means nothing.. I'm just reciprocating.. I once thought maybe working together would mean that we can get back to last time, but it was a foolish thought.. Something that can never happen.. What is past is the past.. No point looking back..

I think I'm really setting a time to quit.. Since I've given them the schedule that I will work on next week.. I'll be a responsible person and work till next week.. You can say that I'm petty.. But from now onwards, I will not help the other stations clear their tables.. I'll just be selfish.

Had a suggestion:

Slowly clear the plates in my station, "accidentally" break a few plates and take my time to clear those plates.. Evil huh? I might consider that.. =)

Sigh.. I'm just venting my frustration here!! You can call me whiny, petty and what not.. Sue me if you want! BUT I DON'T CARE!!

PS: My Dad said that being angry at someone or people is using their faults to make myself suffer.. Chim right? But it makes sense.. I won't talk about this issue anymore.. It just makes my heart boils!

Happy New Year's Day!!

Initially I have to work till 12am last night. Thought that that was really kelian, having to count down to the year at work instead of having fun with others. However, I managed to get permission to end earlier at 11pm.

As usual, like the time i predicted that Christmas Day wouldn't be busy because of the road block, but Marche felt that it would be busy and had full staff that day. Guess what? It's wasn't that busy at all. Same for yesterday, most people weren't at Orchard area, all the party goers are at Woodlands, Siloso Beach, Esplanade or Mt Faber. Who would want to come to orchard when all the fun are not here.

The funniest thing:

me: "So are we still leading guests in? There is no queue right now."

team leader: "Yeah.. We are waiting for the late queue, because later have count down."

me: o_0?? Oh ok.. (Like who is coming here for count down?)

Not long later, they stopped leading guests. Come on! No guests to lead! I was one of the guest leader but we were queuing for the customers, not the other way round. About 15 minutes after leading guest, I asked to go back to may station. To sum up, it wasn't busy yesterday.

I felt so upset yesterday. My colleagues as usual were having their discussion(gossip), I wanted to join in, but they didn't let me into their conversation. I knew what they were talking about! Oh well.. They think that I'm an outsider.. That's just so sad for me.. Don't care lah! I tried to fit in, I think I managed for a time but then I fell out of the gang again. Maybe we just don't make suitable friends for each other.. sometimes I do not understand them at all.. Maybe I'm just jealous.. Haha.. Anyway, I think there are people who dislike me.. So who cares!

Oh enough of digression.. Back to topic..

Orchard was choatic!(But not as choatic as Christmas eve) Almost everyone was holding a spray can and I really hate those foam type! They kept spraying and I feel so soapy and sticky afterwards. Some people were really attacking the passerbys.. Those with spray can usually attacked those with spray cans.. I can see some racism too.. There were lots of indian workers and those teenagers keep spraying at them..

I actually felt the whole spraying thingy very childish.. Haha.. Most probablly because, I wasn't dress in the "can make me dirty" kind of clothes so I really didn't enjoy. The air was filled with the smell of CFC? Not too sure.. It was really pungent and my nose is very numb, when I breath through my mouth, I felt my throat burning.. Horrible feeling. For a small part, I did like the counting down.

After that I walked with Fab to City Hall to meet his friends to have supper.. The going home part was a killer.. It took us ages to grab a cab.. All the cabs available were on call.. We walked from Esplanade to City Hall to Bugis to Simlim. Finally we managed to get on one after about 1 hour.. Reached home really late, about 4. This is the first time I got home so late, this morning my Mum was angry. Sigh..

Boy! What a day to start New Year's Day.. I still have work later. That really stink my day! Anyway, Happy New Year Peeps!

Gossip

This is a rather sensitive issue, how to write it here without offending anyone?

Well.. I heard stuff again.. This time it's not about me.. Phew! It made me see some people more clearly. Ever since that, I've been observing. I came to find that things said were true. However, I've only heard one side of the story.. So I can't really charge (should I use this word) this person guilty yet.

At the beginning, I've found this person, a rather nice person, but now, my impression have changed. If what said was true then she is a cunning and manipulating person, who will bu4 zhe2 shou3 duan4 to gain..

Though I have nothing to do with this person, many friends are in good terms with her. And if she did what I thought she did, then she managed to maipulate them already.

Oh well.. Not my business right? Haha.. I wasn't close to anyone there, so people gossip to me thinking that I have no one to gossip to.. Not too bad huh? I get to hear all the gossips here and there.. =)

Anyway, heard that Marche will be retrenching staff next February. Hmm.. IF! I'm ever working till then (I hope not! -_-), I will most probably be the first to be retrench! Haha! I wonder if they have any retrenchment benefits?

I'll be getting a new handphone later, changing my hp plan as well.. M1's billing per minute and rewards system is not comparable to Starhub. Though I trust M1's service but it's getting too expensive for me. I hope they will let me retain my old number, I like my handphone number and have been using it for 4 years.

Mathematics Lessons

ROMANCE MATHEMATICS

Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

SHOPPING MATH

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.

GENERAL EQUATIONS

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

HAPPINESS

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try tounderstand her at all.

LONGEVITY STATISTICS

Married men live longer than single men, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

PROPENSITY TO CHANGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, but she does.

DISCUSSION TECHNIQUE

A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

HOW TO STOP PEOPLE FROM BUGGING YOU ABOUT GETTING MARRIED

Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next."
They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

SEND THIS TO A SMART WOMAN WHO NEEDS A LAUGH AND TO THE SMART GUYS WHOM YOU KNOW CAN HANDLE IT.

Can't think of a title

There was a meeting back at home yesterday. Luckily the situation didn't get out of hand like what I've expected. But.. There is no hope that the relationship will be like old times. I reckon they won't come to our place again.. Anyway I didn't really like the way they do things, it's a good thing that we won't see them any time soon.. =)

Ber ah.. She say cannot make it on Tuesday for the Christmas lunch so I thought cancled.. Then I didn't buy any present at all. Yesterday suddenly say have.. After dinner, I rushed out of home. I wanted to go Bugis but I missed 2 980 buses and they are full!! The bus driver don't let me in.. Sigh.. Changed of destination last minute, went to Orchard instead. Went Shopping, took me ages to buy something. Stupid! It would have be easier, if I went to Bugis cause I already know what to get but too bad lah.. At the end didn't get what I wanted but I hope the girls will like what I get.. ;)

Can't wait to end work today, finally I'm working till 12am. It's been ages since I've work till so late.. See how lah.. I get really sleepy when it's 11pm nowadays, hopefully I can last till later.. =p

Last week's class was cancled, tomorrow I'll have 2 lessons at one go.. I really looking forward to classes! Wish time will pass quickly.. =D

Yeah!!

Fab is coming back today!! Yeah!! Can't wait to see him later! Miss him so much..

Yeah!! I got A+ for COMM100 assignment 1 and A for Assignment 2!!! I've passed!! I think I'll get a B overall, cause I didn't participate much at all.. Anyway who cares? I've passed!

Despite all my Yeah!!s earlier on, I dread to go to work.. Sigh today is friday!!!!!!!! Going to be super duper busy!!!!!!! Argh....................... The past few days have been rather busy, tonight going to be worst!! =p CRAP!

Do I look local?

Haha..

Many people said that I do not look chinese nor do I look local.

To begin with, when I was younger before I go to school, many people thought that I'm eurasian. That is because, I had natural curly hair and my hair is brown plus I have extra long eye lashes. My Grandma never allow my mother to let me wear a hat as I would look more eurasian. When I show my friends, one of my old photos, they thought that I look Malay. o_O??

During primary school, someone once mention that I look Japanese. My tutor thought that I was eurasian. She didn't believe that I was a pure Chinese.

At secondary school, many people thought that I was Indonesian Chinese. Maybe that is because I was always around the Indonesians and I kind of caught their accent. My friends said that my chinese sounded "Ang mo", but I thought my chinese is ok.. Many teachers always mixed me up with another friend, Devi. They thought that we were twins! For goodness sake, we are of different nationalities! ;)

And Poly? During year 1, someone thought that I was Indonesian too. She was shocked when she heard me speak chinese. Lol! =D Other than that, no one says that I not Singaporean nor Chinese. Think that is because I grew fairer and lost the accent.

Now that I'm working at Marche, I've been identified as any nationality but Singaporean. Some colleagues thought that I look like I'm from Myanmar, some thought that I look China Chinese. Once a customer asked me if I'm Singaporean. Haha! Now what? One of my colleague thought that I am "Ang Mo" (that is what she said). Haha.. She was also shocked when I speak chinese. She was like, "Eh? You know chinese?" And what's more? She later confirmed with me that both my parents are chinese. Hahaha...

Lolx!! In conclusion, I don't look like a Singaporean Chinese.. What do you think?

Don't feel good..

I really didn't feel good working at all, people seem to be hinting me.. Why 2 face, just tell me in my face that they not happy with me lah.. Why say so many crap to hint me something?

Bull Shit! >p

Forget it.. Don't care how the rest feel.. Be it that I'm selfish or whatever..

I hate people who backstab!!!!!! To Hell with all of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Crap!

Fab's off to Shanghai for a holiday.. I've been asked to go too but I don't suppose my parents will allow it. Furthermore, I don't have the money lah.. I want a life panda!!!

Sigh.. I miss him already.. This sucks.. To think that I was saying, " Must enjoy yourself! Take care!! etc" Hmm.. Can one lah, he's been away a long time before.. This time isn't the longest..

Finally, I'm starting work today. Heard some awful things.. Sigh.. Maybe I can't work there any longer already.. See how things go, if it's terrible then maybe I should quit. If I'm not wanted, I know when to leave.

My back is finally recovering after months of pain! Hopefully, I won't worsen its current condition when I start work.. Still on medication.. Stupid.. 5 pills per day!

Results are out, not too bad, at least no F. I think I could do better if I managed my time better. But it's been tough to divide time between study, work and family. Feel like defering school for a year or two before continueing my studies. I'm considering about it, weighing the pros and cons.. Opportunity Cost!!!

Sigh back to work.. I hope that I won't get cold shoulders from anyone.. =( To hell with work!

I'm looking forward to tomorrow's class.. Hehe.. Stop classes for 3 weeks, can't wait to attend it again. =)

Anti - COMM100

Feel mentally exhausted. This COMM100 is really draining my brain juice. I have an essay to write every day! Monday was on "Will Singapore change once it has 2 casinos?", yesterday was "Globalization is a blessing for both developed and developing countries and today was "Drug trafficking deserves the death penalty". Killer! Needs facts or statistics to support each point. WTH! Do you know it is not easy to find facts especially when you have less than a days to do research on? Crap!

Luckily that I'm not working this week, or I will die terribly for this course!

ANTI - COMM100!!! 2 more days!! I will ren3!!!!!!!

A New Blogskin?

Hmm.. Kinda sick with this skin.. Should I design another one? Thinking of doing one but am really lazy to do the coding.. Shitty! :p

Or should I just go blogskins.com to search for a new skin?

Stupid COMM100!!! Gotta go school tomorrow 9am!!!! What the hell.. Sian why all my friends are in the different classes, not even one of them same.. All alone.. Boring!!!

Freedom?

Yeah! Ended my last paper yesterday! Finally FREEDOM!!!!... But wait! I still have to attend some stupid english class for the whole of next week, 4 hours a day! I still have not bought the
book yet!! Damn expensive! Almost $30 for a 5 days course? No way man! Sigh not much freedom afterall. =( We already have a short one month holiday, now with this course, it's even shorter! I only have 3 weeks break before the new term starts! Shitty!!

Yesterday was Fab's birthday. We had dinner with his family at the restaurant BLU at Shangri-La Hotel. The ambience was really romantic with candle lights and it is dominated by low-key blue lighting. The table we had, had a breathtaking view of the city. We could even see SMU from there. This restaurant serve Californian cuisine, I ordered italian heirloom tomato & buffalo milk cheese salad for starters, I love the cheese, it was great, the tomatoes were sweet not those sour ones.. I didn't know what to order as I do not know the menu too well, however I had the roasted fillet of alaskan halibut with roasted king prawns for the main course which was a good choice. I love fish! What's even greater, the prawns are unshelled! Haha.. I hate to remove shells, this is why I don't eat crab or prawn unless someone help me remove the shell. There was live jazz towards the end of our meal, which really add more romantic mood into the whole setting..

Though what I mention may sound really nice and classy and I should have enjoyed it, but strangely enough, I feel a little uncomfortable, I don't feel at ease at these kind of setting for the high class. I'm more suitable for the hawker center settings. Lolx.. I wonder how many people feel the same way as I do..

Sigh.. It's a pity that I didn't go with the girls to Club Momo.. Not that I'm missing the experience at the club but it is kinda like the first outing we ever had and I missed it. Looking forward to the next one.. The Malaysia trip is still on I hope.. *fingers crossed*

Last Paper tomorrow!

What the hell am I doing here? I know I should be studying, especially when I've only touched the last few weeks notes. I still have week 2 to week 6 untouched yet. Hehe..

But believe me, I think I have had enough of business law for the day. I think I'll just continue it later tonight before bed or tomorrow morning before the paper!

o_O!! Don't care! It's open book!

Oh yah.. Romeo is leaving today, too bad I didn't get to see him the other day when the girls went out with him. I wish him all the best! Good luck in looking for a wife! And don't forget all of us! I will miss the times when we worked together!! If I get a chance to go China, I'll go look for him. =) Bon Voyage!

Joker!!

Boy! What a stupid thing had happened today. All the while since last week I'd been thinking that I'll be working on Tuesday and Wednesday.

To think that this morning, I'm thinking of whether I should go to work cause I have not done my revision at all.. Guess what? I decided to go to work at the end and maybe not work tomorrow. I went to Marche, went straight to the locker room and changed into my uniform. When I'm changed, I went to look at this week's schedule and I found out that I have no working days at all this week!!!

WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -_-''

Went home, I did. Wasted like 2 hours going there and going back home. What a joker I am.. Sigh..

Uni Life

Sigh..

Life in university is never what I'd expected. I find it totally sucky.. Hate it here.. I miss lectures!! Sigh.. Why is it only a seminar kind of system.

Exams are coming soon!! Great! I think I'll just do really badly for this term.. Sux..

Complicated Relationship!

Once there is this girl, A, who gets to know this idiot guy, B. At first the relationship was a normal one. However due to some rumours, the A starts to fall for B.

What is unknown to A is that B who claims that he have no girlfriend does not like her at all. All he wanted is to have fun and he does have a girlfriend, C. B kept leading her on, sending her smses and did other stuff which sent the wrong signals. A fell deeper and deeper in love for him, most people told her to give up but she is blinded by love, she seems to think that B reciprocated too.

Apparently there are alot of people who knew that B and C but it was kept like a secret so there are people who didn't know about it too. B and C are always on and off, I heard that when B's bored with the others he will always go back to C (how much truth it is, I don't know).B's mother had once told him that he can't have a girlfriend until he's 28 or 30 (I can't remember) and he too says that it is impossible for him and A to be together.

A knows another girl, D, D seems like a nice friend to A but what is unknown again is, D asked B to be her boyfriend when she herself has a boyfriend and when she knew that A has it hard for B. Due to this incident of D asking B to be her boyfriend, C appeared. Lately A gets to know C but she knew nothing about her real identity.

The main reason for C's appearance because of D, as the both of them are not getting along too well with each other ( I've heard). And apparently C does not get bothered about A as she is of no threat to her at all.

Now comes the real problem! B asked the A to be his girlfriend and she agreed!

I really really feel no justice for A. A seems to know something but she is willing to forget about the other things and go ahead to be with B.. I'm worried for A, she's just too innocent and naive, B's out there to con her and she willingly fall into his trap!

I really hate B for cheating on A! I also dislike this D as I always thought she was a nice friend too! I hate myself who cannot tell A straight in the face about all these as I'd promise someone that I won't tell her about it. Am I really wrong to not let her know? I'm a terrible friend. Some people say that A have to learn it the hard way.

Sigh some things that you thought you knew, may not always be the truth. This world is really a cruel and wicked place, one must always be cautious of who he or she meets. This really reminds me of a game which I played during the very first EIC camp in 2002. It's about sharks, lazy to explain the game.

If A is still stubborn, I really wish that B is treating her well and he is sincere to her.

Any solutions?

Shit!!

Stress setting in now!

I'm so happy that I pass my test! Sigh.. This is sucky! Where is the spirit that I want to do well for my school work? I'm like happy as long as I pass this term. Shitty!!!

Horrible!! I'm lost again.. Having thoughts about dying, having thoughts about defering school to a later date.. Sigh.. What is all these shit!!!

Feeling really shitty right now and this feeling really sux! Feel like I cannot really blend into school life.. I really can't mix well with people.. Do I look fierce again? I still having problems with presentation! I really feel very upset about that.. :(

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MIA again!!

Hello hello!! It's been a long long long long time.. Why? Because my desktop's motherboard blew and my laptop's IE having problem.. Most of all!! Due to my LAZYNESS! Really could not think of any topic to blog about.

School's starting to get buzy as the day passes. Lots of projects dueing and exams coming up. School's not the place and environment I had imagine it would be. A real disappointment really.. I miss Poly days. Sigh..

Sigh.. Think my blog entry gonna be a really boring one.. I'll just end it here then..

Get to Know Yourself Better Quiz

A quiz which Jia' Ai sent me. Rather interesting..

Check out this quiz!

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
Yesh, I'm striaght forward but I don't think I'm an efficient problem solver.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Quite true, not exactly serious, just needs to know when to play and when to work.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
True, my ex bfs usually are my good friends.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Hmm.. Don't know about this..

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

I think so, I'm also a slacker at times..

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

True.. Secure job more important than job that i really like.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

Don't know..

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Yeah! I'm afraid of things I cannot control, but I don't resort to anger lah..

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Some part true.. I don't know if I give good advice but I'm always in a dilemma..

School Start

It's been a long time since I'd blog, simply because I either have no time or I have nothing to blog about.

School just start for me on Monday. Everything's been fine so far, made some new friends and found the same people for my project group which is good. It'll be better to meet up with same people since our timetable is similar. There are 5 of us, in which 4 were from poly and 1 from JC. Do we hold an avantage over the rest? I don't know.

I've found out that Babu Babu has the same timetable as me, which means I get to see her everytime. She's rather distracting with her whiny voice and the way she tries to AA.. Really I don't understand why she behaves this way? She is pretty according to the guys, she'll get all the attention she wants, just as long as she stop talking..

Today's Business Law, seriously the book just looks like a bible. I just didn't feel like reading it today but I read it just the same. Horrible book! Made me want to sleep, so wordy, font so small, no pictures or diagrams, no colors, only black and white. I hope we ex poly students hold an advantage since we had taken BLAW before in poly. What is Stare Decisis? Anyone remember?

Still haven't decide on the CCA I wanna take part in, seriously do we need one? I'm really not interested in joining any at the moment. If I'm joining, it's just for the sake of making my resume look nice. :D

Anyway I believe I got to go to bed soon.. I really tired, not used with the morning classes and those 3 hour classes, I find them extremely long for my liking. :P

sick of work

I am seriously sick of work.. Just felt really tired, mentally especially.. However, I'll need to work for my own spending for my uni days.. Don't think I can depend on my parents anymore, I'll earn my own school fees, transportation and food expenditure..

I think I would change another job if I can get the same pay or higher.. I can't stay in a company too long, I'll just get bored of it..

Most of my colleagues thought that I'm single and never had a boyfriend before.. Sorry for the lie, I just didn't want my cousin to know about it.. My maternal relatives are just not ready to accept that I have a boyfriend at my age.. o_O?? Sigh... Only 2 persons knew, one just quitted and the other, he actually didn't quite understand the relationship, so it's ok..

Working here, means having lots of chance to serve people that I know. So paiseh.. To date, I saw my polymates and seniors, BHB mates, Neighbours, primary schoolmates.. It just feels odd to clear their dishes, so I asked my colleagues to clear instead.. Keke..

Going to work later, working 3pm-12am.. Can't wait to see Fab later, he'll be picking me up from work..

Romantic Compatibility

Aries & Sagittarius

When Aries and Sagittarius come together in a love affair, it can be a match made in heaven! These partners have much in common -- similar energies and interests -- and are highly compatible. Both are explorers and pioneers. This relationship is torrid and exciting and both partners are always ready for a new adventure. They both crave life experience of their own and don't like to waste time just reading about it or listening to others tell about theirs. They do need to be careful, however: This could be an accident-prone relationship as Aries is always in a rush and Sagittarius tends to look at everything but the obvious. Also, as much as these two have in common, it may be difficult to maintain a long-term relationship when both parties have so much energy to start new things -- but not much interest in following through.

Aries and Sagittarius make great friends as well as lovers. They truly understand one another's optimistic view of life. Problems are rare, but Sagittarius has an even greater need for independence than does Aries, who can sometimes be overly possessive. Aries is also a bit more sensitive than the fun and flirty Archer; Sagittarius can tend to put their foot in their mouth, so to speak, by speaking without thinking. The good thing is, both Signs are able to forgive and forget fast. They don't have time to spend holding a grudge!

Aries is ruled by Mars (Passion) and Sagittarius is ruled by Jupiter (Philosophy and Luck). Both of these Planets are masculine, so these Signs tend to look at the world in the same way. Sagittarius likes to take a risk under Jupiter's indulgent influence. Mars is all about initiative, taking (sometimes aggressive) action. When Aries comes up with a new, exciting idea for a date, trip or other adventure, Sagittarius is always ready and willing to go along for the ride.

Both Aries and Sagittarius are Fire Signs. This combination can produce an eternal flame. Both Signs are always on the go. They have endless resources of energy; it's rare for one partner to fizzle out on the other.

Aries is a Cardinal Sign and Sagittarius is a Mutable Sign. Aries initiates new ideas and Sagittarius will go right along with it -- as long as they're allowed to come along. There's never any power struggle between these two related to ""who's on top."" Aries likes to have all the glory and Sagittarius is happy to control events from behind the scenes. Both Signs are better at starting things than ending them, which can be trouble if one or both Sign feels that the relationship is becoming stale; thank goodness that's so unlikely! Aries does get bored easily, but Sagittarius always keeps life fast-paced and fun.

What's the best aspect of an Aries-Sagittarius relationship? Their mutual tendency to be the pioneers and explorers of the Zodiac. They are well matched in their enthusiasm, energy and drive. Their common interests and similar personalities make them a very compatible couple.

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Article taken from Yahoo! Astrology.

The CIRCLE Experience

Hmm.. Did you know that when I first went for the group 71 gathering at Suntec Marche I was actually kinda disappointed with my groupmates as there are only 4 of us, Wunna, Yanxia and Seehao. I thought that since they didn't come, it all comes down to say that they are not the enthu sort of people.. Sadist right?

On the day, it was ok, the girls stayed with the girls and the guys with the guys.. You know the usual stuff as if we are of different species.. As the day passes I realised that my group was actually quite fun and interesting. Such as while dragon boating, Randy kept splashing water into Yanxia's face..When sleeping on the first night, James keep kicking my feet, while Yanxia kicked his and about Gavin who like this girl and about "Babu Babu!".. I really wouldn't exchange this experience with another other things in the world..

By the end of the camp, I came to really like my groupmates (Asilah, Jazreel, Minmin, Yanxia, Gavin, Randy, Mervyn, James, Wunna and Waihon). All of them are really wonderful and talented in their own kind of way.. Haha.. Not to mention my Facilitator, Jing En too.. I'm really proud to know them.

Though we may not win any of the games and scored one of the lowest, I had a fun time and I believed that process is more important than the results/destination. What matters is fun and I learnt a very important thing about planning.However I thought that during this camp, I'll get to know more about the school and know what to expect but sad to say, I didn't get any of this kind of information.. :(

There will be a bash at China Black, all the guys in my group are going (guess I know why.. Lolx), none of the girls are going.. Guess we just ain't that kind of people who goes clubbing..
I hope my group plan an outing soon.. They are the first friends I've made even before school starts, it'll be a pity if the friendship just ends there.. Alrighty! I'll get the guys to plan it then.. Lolx.. All the girls are working so it's kinda hard to plan..

Work

Work had been extremely unbearable.. It is not just due to the toughness and also due to the people there. It is very hard to get close with them. Maybe it's just me.. People always say I looked dao or really serious when they first meet me. This is why, it's hard to get near me? I don't know.. Maybe I should smile more? I even felt like quitting one day, but quitting just because I can't get along well with my colleagues is not a reason to quit.

This week had been better, the ice is slowly breaking... Even though work is tiring, but their jokes and gossips definitely soothes the exhaustion.. =)

Not bad.. During my 5th or 6th day, the assistant manager actually told me that my pay has been raised from $5.50 to $6. According to my colleagues, my raise was a fast one. Some of them actually worked for a month before they get their raise.

New Job

Yeah! Got a new job, will be ending this old one on Friday. Going to start work next Monday, I'm looking forward to it. Pay higher, more working hours. =)

Sigh! I can't get anyone to go to SMU with me. So sad.. Celeste, Emily and Meiqi going on Tuesday, how am I to take off on the 2nd day of work? Madeline's going on Monday, that's even worse.. On my 1st day of work?

No chance to discuss with anyone about school. :( No chance to ask "What modules do you want to bid for? Which time slot? Want to meet for the 1st class?" Etc etc etc.. No choice, I'll got to go alone then..

Suddenly feel so alone again. A new school, no friends.. My friends are all at difference course, different campus. A new environment, new faces.. Wonder how I'll fare

Name: Jacinth

I was surfing the net just now looking for the meaning of my name. My name is rather uncommon among people and many people find it hard to pronounce. This is why most people don't know me by Jacinth only Jac or Si Ying. I've decided to go search and understand more about my name. The only knowledge I have is that Jacinth is a precious stone and is related to Hyacinth.

Below I have summarized my findings:

Jacinth

Pronounced: JAY-sinth, JAS-inth (However mine's JA-sinth)
Origin: Greek
Gender: Female
Meaning: Attractive, Beautiful. Derived from the name of a precious stone. This name is also related to the Greek purple flower, hyacinth.
Nicknames: Jacy, Jacey, Jacie (My nicknames are Jac, Jacky and Jaco)
Other names associated with Jacinth are: Giacinta(f), Giacinto(m), Hyacinth(f & m), Hyacintha(f), Hyacinthe(f), Jacek(m), Jacenda(f), Jacenta(f), Jacenty(m), Jacey(f), Jacie(f), Jacinda(f), Jacindia(f), Jacinna(f), Jacinta(f), Jacintha(f), Jacinthe(f), Jacinthia, Jacinto(m), Jacy(f), Jacynth(f)





I have search some bible study website and found this article. It gives a more in dept meaning to the name Jacinth. BTW I not a Christian, I'm a free thinker. (Highlight below to view the article)

Jacinth
Jacinth, from the Greek hyacinth, a flower native to The Mediterranean region, is a name given to a variety of zircon, a precious stone of that flower's color (under oxidizing heat treatment, zircon can range in color from reddish-blue or deep-purple to yellow).

References to jacinth are found in both the Old and New Testaments, first as one of the precious stones in the high priest's breastpiece (shown in the illustration) and second as one of those in the magnificent foundations of the New Jerusalem - the earlier usage being a foreshadlow of the latter. The greatest natural concentrations of Jacinth have been found in Russia, Canada, Pakistan and Norway.

Jacinth
As with so many things introduced in earlier Bible History, the precious stones in the breastpiece of the High Priest (see Levites and Aaron) were symbolic of what was, and is, to come.

"And you shall make a breastpiece of judgment, in skilled work; like the work of the ephod you shall make it; of gold, blue and purple and scarlet stuff, and fine twined linen shall you make it. It shall be square and double, a span its length and a span its breadth. And you shall set in it four rows of stones. A row of sardius, topaz, and carbuncle shall be the first row; and the second row an emerald, a sapphire, and a diamond; and the third row a jacinth, an agate, and an amethyst; and the fourth row a beryl, an onyx, and a jasper; they shall be set in gold filigree. There shall be twelve stones with their names according to the names of the sons of Israel; they shall be like signets, each engraved with its name, for the twelve tribes." (Exodus 28:15-21 RSV)

Jacinth will be one of the precious stones in the foundations of the New Jerusalem, on earth (note also in Revelation 21:21, included below, that the famous "Pearly Gates" will also be on earth):

"And in the Spirit he carried me away to a great, high mountain, and showed me the holy city Jerusalem coming down out of heaven from God, having the glory of God, its radiance like a most rare jewel, like a jasper, clear as crystal. It had a great, high wall, with twelve gates, and at the gates twelve angels, and on the gates the names of the twelve tribes of the sons of Israel were inscribed; on the east three gates, on the north three gates, on the south three gates, and on the west three gates. And the wall of the city had twelve foundations, and on them the twelve names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb."

"And he who talked to me had a measuring rod of gold to measure the city and its gates and walls. The city lies foursquare, its length the same as its breadth; and he measured the city with his rod, twelve thousand stadia; its length and breadth and height are equal. He also measured its wall, a hundred and forty-four cubits by a man's measure, that is, an angel's. The wall was built of jasper, while the city was pure gold, clear as glass. The foundations of the wall of the city were adorned with every jewel; the first was jasper, the second sapphire, the third agate, the fourth emerald, the fifth onyx, the sixth carnelian, the seventh chrysolite, the eighth beryl, the ninth topaz, the tenth chrysoprase, the eleventh jacinth, the twelfth amethyst. And the twelve gates were twelve pearls, each of the gates made of a single pearl, and the street of the city was pure gold, transparent as glass." (Revelation 21:10-21 RSV)

Sucky

I've been thinking since yesterday, I feel like quitting this job and get another one. It can be really pathetic, earning only $100++ a month. They can't even schedule me to work more even when I requested them, as there is only a limit of people they need and there are like 4 part timers. If I were to work full time, they have no need to work already.. This sux big time.

Yesterday was Father's day however we celebrated my cousin's birthday instead. The same happens every year, I just didn't like to hang out with this side of the family as the way they treat me, always makes me feel inferior and they always make fun of me. Though I know they are joking but it just didn't feel alright at all. =( Bleah! This side of the family, always treat me and my brother like some maid or something. Only we get called to clean up the house, only we get to help with preparations for cooking. The others just wait for us to get things done.

I just really wonder what's up with mother. After school ended, I say if I can rest for awhile before going to work at my Godfather's clients place, as I wasn't sure if any of the university will accept. She say no problem, looking after me for a few months don't mean anything, since she's been doing so for the past 20 years. Then during that time, I went out almost everyday but seriously I was only shopping for prom. She got angry at me for going out and not finding a job. So I went to look for one and took a little longer as I was looking for the distance from home to work. She complained that I was too choosy. Then finally I found a job, she said I'm stupid as I need to buy uniform and I signed a contract. She wants to find a part time job, I helped to ask, she complain that the distance is too far.. I mentioned I wish to get married by 27 and that next time if I were to have kids, I want to look after them, maybe I'll work part time or work from home. She ask me why I go university?

What does she wants from me? Fine! I'll work for my education, I don't need her to support me! As long as I have $100 for my eating and transportation, I can survive (I've been doing that since poly, only $100 allowance a month), the rest I'll be able to save to pay my school fees after the study loan!

When people got offered by any university, usually people will be happy for them. But my relatives? Why don't you go work first, get the company to sponsor you. Or work a few years, earn enough money, go overseas to further your studies. Go sign on to any government work.. All those really discouraging words, so I'm really wrong to pursue my studies. So I should work first. So I should be a teacher or police.. Then even if I get a job not to my liking, not to my passion, it's ok as money is more important. I wonder if someday I managed to have a high paying work and I quit just to be a dolphin trainer, will they puke blood?


So it is wrong to pursue my dreams, it is wrong to be myself. I should be someone everyone wants me to be. Suddenly I just feel like dying, there's really nothing in this world that is worth my presence.. Hmm.. What if they say I wasted their money all these years. Maybe I should start earn money to repay my parents then go die?

The guy who loves you...

I got this The guy who loves you message from Friendster and I found it quite interesting. However not everything applies at all.

The guy who loves you can't tell you the reason why he loves you. All you knows that is in his eyes, you are the only one. True.. When I asked him that he just can't give me an answer, I too can't answer him when he asked me.

The guy who loves you always make you mad, but he never know what stupid things he did, as everything he's done, is for your own good. Not really..

The guy who loves you seldom praise you , but in his heart, you are the best, only he knows it. Hmm.. I don't really know about this..

The guy who loves you will scold or complain if you didn't reply his message, because he cares. He never scolds me for that but he'll get worried, thinking something bad must have happened to me.

The guy who loves you only drop his tears in front of you, when you try to wipe his tears, you are touching his heart, the heart which beats for you. He never cried in front of me, though I know he cried when I'm not around. Maybe he just doesn't want to show me that he's vulnerable..

The guy who loves you will remember every word you said, even it's accidentally and he will use those words at the nick of time. Not applicable, have yet to know.

The guy who loves you will not give any promise that easily, because he doesn't want to break the promise, he wants you to believe him and wants to give you the happiest and safest life everafter. I think it really depends on the kind of promise.

The guy who loves you always tell you not to think too much, because he already planned it for you, he wants to give you the best in life, he wants to give you a suprise, believe him that he can do it. I have no doubt about this..

The guy who loves you may not be able to remember special occasion like some kind of anniversary,but he does know that, every second he lives, he's loving you, no matter what day it is. Hehe.. I may be the one being forgetful..

The guy who loves you won't say "I love you" that easily because everything he's done for you is showing that he loves you, but will only say the 3 words during special situation as he doesn't want you to misunderstand, he wants you to know that he loves you. This is totally wrong.

The guy who really loves you will feel that sometimes somethings will have to tell only once because he thought that you already understand him, if say so much, he will feel that there's nothing you will cherish. Hmm..

The guy who loves you will go to airport to fetch you, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you Darling like what you have expected. However he will carry your luggage and ask you "Why have you lost so much weight in 2 days?" Have yet to happen..

The guy who loves you will listen quietly to you when you are mad and when you finished, he will say, "You've got class tomorrow, sleep earlier." Nope, he will advise me after listening.

The guy who loves you doesn't know whether to call you when you are angry, but he will sent a message to you after few hours. If you ask him why he call that late, he will say, "When you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calm down, my explanation will only really mean to you." Not really..

The guy who loves you always call you little girl but everytime he wants to make a big decision, he will first want to hear your advice. Think so..

The guy who loves you doesn't like girlish toys like teddybear, but he will always put the bear you gave him at his bed. He doesn't like them and I didn't give him any..

The guy who loves you will apologize when you quarrell, althought you are the one who's in the wrong. He will send a message to you with "Dear.. It is your fault and you know it." Totally true..

When the guy who loves you misses you, he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait for you stupidly under your apartment.What he never know is that he bought you daisy in stead of roses, but doesn't matter because in his heart that's rose. NA.. Anyway I love daisy!

The guy who loves you seldom say sweet nothings, but you know his kisses already transfer his passions to you. Untrue for the first part and true for the second one.

If the guy who loves you can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy, because he knew, if he keep on missing you, he couldn't get anything done. Hmm.. He will try to find ways to see me.

BWL FAREWELL DINNER!!!!!!

Farewell Dinner
Date: Friday, 2 December 2005
Time: 6.30 pm to 10.30 pm
Venue: Orchid Country Club, Grand Ballroom
Ticket Price: $48.00Food: Halal Chinese

Ex-students and past teachers are invited to register your names with to get the tickets early.

Please drop an email at bwss_farewell_dinner@yahoo.com.sg or download the invitation form (PDF)

Those going please let me know, we go register together.. Thank you! =)

For more info: http://schools.moe.edu.sg/bwss/

Missing him..

It's been 4 days.. I am really missed him lots!

Glad to have the 2 bears and another lamb to be by my side when I go to bed. They are always sleeping with me at night. The lamb he got me when he went to NZ for holiday, the Forever Friends bear he got me on our 4th monthsary and the DIY bear he got me for Christmas. The most prized is still the Forever Friends bear, it meant a lot to me.

When I can't sleep, there is the set of comics he bought me, which I have read dozens of times. I still haven't got use to the phoneless night, we used to chat for at least an hour before bed and often I just doze off to sleep with him talking at the end of the line. Haha..

When waiting for the bus going or leaving work, his smses is there to keep me company. Last night I started copying the sms as my hp have limited space and I can't save all of them.. I had deleted some in the past due to the space limit which I really regret. I'll just continue to copy them tonight before I go to bed.

I really looked forward to his call every night even though it just a 5 minute one. Just hearing his voice, feels good..

Enlistment Day

Yesterday was Fab's enlistment day.

The BTMC looked really nice, from afar we were wondering if that was a resort. When we reached there the enlistees went for their briefing while the family members go for a tour around the school. Living conditions there is not bad, they even have a mess room? Something like a receational room filled with billiard table, soccer table, TV, DVD player etc. Wah life for them looks quite relaxing..

We were brought to a shed where the officer? not sure who he is, showed us the items that the NS men will get and their rationing when they are out training. By the looks of the meals, I really wonder if they will ever get full but maybe not as those are only for display.

We went to the Auditorium where they show us a video and someone did a presentation. A very interesting sight to see when the enlistees were giving their pledge.

They were all shouting:
I (name), NIRC number (_______)..........
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It's a funny sight when they say "I" so loud and together but when they say their name, you could only hear loud mumberings, same goes to their NRIC number. Lolx.. They even sang the national anthem, really loudly that they sang too fast.. I think they couldn't hear that they were faster than the tape.

Dinner was provided, but they only allow the enlistees to leave the auditorium row by row, after that followed by the family and friends, same thing row by row too.. Which took a really long time as we are at the back rows.. When we came out of the auditorium, we found out that the enlistees where standing single file on both sides of the path waiting for their family. There were very little enlistees by the time we got out, so Fab must be standing there for quite some time.

By the time we get to the food house, we were the last few who got the food. We need to queue up for food like some catering. The portions are really big, luckily I manage to tell the person to give me lesser rice. We had butter rice with fried fish, hot dog, whip potato, bun, soup and dessert. The food is not bad. This whole thing looked like the enlistees are going for a summer camp in a resort. However we wouldn't know for sure.

Fab called me at night, he sounded sick and not himself. I'm worried for him.

Deep down, I still feel that NS is good for the guys, though it wastes 2 years of the guys time. It allows them to grow up and be a stronger and better person in terms of physical and emotional.
It's really a period where boy transform into man. Looking forward to Fab's first booking on the 23rd June. Wonder how he'll look like, slimmer and bald? Haha..

Employed

I'm employed finally.. Pay isn't high only $4.50 per hour, however it's near my house and it doesn't take up the whole day, only 4 hours or at most 8 plus hours and about 4 days a week. I still have time to go out.. Hehe.. During break time I can go home for dinner before going back to work again. Met some interesting customers but it's still bearable.. Colleagues there are ok, I'm still not used to them yet I suppose.

I realized that I haven't met my poly friends since prom night and my secondary school's friends since Lunar New Year? Haha.. I've been antisocial, really not a healthy behavior. I have lots of friends but none are close and who is to blame? Me? Maybe, I don't ask them out, neither do they do that, it takes 2 to clap. I'm hoping to make new friends when school starts and I'm determined to look for my BEST FRIEND.

Parents

What do you guys think of your parents? Are they overprotective? Kind? Friendly? Strict? What are they?

Mine? They are mighty strict and protective, which I'm starting to feel a little suffocated by them.

• Cannot go out everyday
• Curfew: Cannot go home too late (this have been compromised)
• No staying over at friend's house (even if my parents know them)
• Cannot stay over for chalet
• Cannot go to bf's house too often (ok I understand this and I have compromised)
• Every Sunday is strictly Family Day (must we make one day for such a day? we don't even go for outings only for brunch or dinner)
• No boyfriend till you go out to work ( finally they accepted fab, however I cannot let my relatives know it. WTH!)

I capable of taking care of myself, I know what is wrong and what is right so why are they so protective? Because I'm the eldest? I'm a girl? Which one or both?

Is it because I always need to get their permission for so many things, that I feel that I have become extremely indecisive, I can't seem to make up my mind. Are they over protective that sometimes I find myself running away from responsibilities. I'm just afraid to take risk though I always say others for being so. I'm just a timid little girl, not able to face society.

Sometimes I feel that I behave like a snob or some da4 xiao3 jie3, though I'm not one. I hate giving people that impression that I'm such a person. Once someone thought I was a some da4 xiao3 jie3 due to the way I behave and talk I suppose. I hate that as it doesn't mean any good, it means I'm snobbish, cannot take suffering, a girls who gets everything she wants? No I don't.

However I do not mean that what my parents did is wrong, they care for me and are protecting me the way they think is good for me. But they never understand why I feel I should be given more freedom. They are good parents, we joked and played with each other but it's not enough. Maybe I'm just being really naive and childish at this, I need to grow up.

MIA

It's been quite some time since I've blogged, really have nothing to blog about. I've design a few more skins, thinking whether I should post in blogskins.com. What if nobody downloads them?

Been looking for a job, maybe I'm just too picky. There's not good but I'm still looking for one. Any job lobang remember to let me know. :)

New blogskin

Hehe.. After weeks of designing this skin, I finally found out what's the problem is. What do you think? Maybe it's a little childish but I'll design another one next time.. :)

SMU Admission

When I had my SMU interview 2 weeks ago, I was totally disappointed at my performance.

I was nervous (as usual), I blabbered nonsense that makes no sense. The other interviewees were very vocal and had spoken well on the topic. When I got warm up and decided that since the interview will be a 2 hour one, I'll have a chance to perform. However the interview discussion ended after 1 topic discussion on euthanasia which only lasted 1 hour. Argh!! I knew I screwed up the interview.

Then I thought I can go ahead to find a job and apply next year again but maybe I won't put business management as the first choice as I felt that ISM will be easier. When I heard some got replies from SMU, I was really giving up hope as I still had not received one. Sigh..

Ta da!! I received a letter from SMU today.

Dear WONG SI YING

Congratulations! We are delighted to offer you admission to SMU's Bachelor of Business Management programme at our Lee Kong Chian School of Business for the Academic Year 2005-06..........

Haha! I was just as delighted to be offered! I was ECSTATIC! I never expected it, though my Dad wasn't surprise at all. Now all I need to do is to accept the offer. I still can't believed it.

U Admission

I've finally recieved the letter for adminssion to NUS. I was excited as now it means that I have a back up if I screw up the interview at SMU. Then when I opened the letter, to my utter disappointment, the course was computing.

I don't like computing, it is no way that I'll accept this course! NEVER! At most I'll try again next year. >p

Ugly!

Have you ever gone to the temple for free vegetarian food? There you can have a glimpse of the dirty side of human nature.

A temple beside Guang1 Ming2 Si4 is serving free vegetarian tonight, my family headed there with my Gu1 Ma1 and family and Pak Pak and family, total of 14 of us and 1 table have to be filled with 10 people before they can serve the food. Obviously with 14, we can't fill 1 table so we divided ourselves to 8 and 6. The one with 6 was sharing their table with other people. I'm with the 8 and the volunteers are waiting for us to fill up the seats.

Guess what?! My Mom and my Gu1 Ma1 didn't want to share the table with strangers due to hygiene matters. Then when a volunteer is going to serve the food to another table, I Aunt snatched the food and placed it on our table. Of course the other volunteers were obviously not happy, my Mom was saying that there are 2 others and they will come later, we can just start eating first but they couldn't do anything since my Gu1 Ma1 had already snatched the food.

All I can say is that I'm really embarrassed by their behavior. After that I sat there quietly eating, I can just feel the eyes staring at my table. OMG.. This is totally a disgrace!

At the end, the guys didn't feel full so we went to have Teochew Porridge (This excludes ME and some others). Oh boy.. Ironic isn't it? We were there for the free food but had to go fill our stomachs else where after the meal.

Bottle Tree Village

Just came back from my dinner at Bottle Tree Village. The place is simply gorgeous, however the food is not that wonderful. But it would be a nice place to go for a drink and chit chat with friends, kind of romantic actually. Really you guys ought to go there and see for yourself. It's at 60 Jalan Mempurong Singapore 759058.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to Me!
Happy Birthday to Me!
Happy Birthday to Me.....
Happy Birthday to Me!!

Yes today is my Birthday! I have officially turn 20 today, 3rd April 2005! I would like to thank those who wished me Happy Birthday:

• Fab
• Celeste
• Gwen
• Lian
• Bin
• Belinda
• Amelia
• Jianquan
• Clement
• Pamela
• Peixin

Thank you for remembering my birthday!

There's nothing special about this year's birthday. No celebration, no friends, no presents, however I'm content with the greetings and Fab spent 1/2 the day with me eating and watching movie.

This morning I was really sian, just felt a little depress I think. No celebration and all that, but when I think that there are people who remembered my birthday. I felt contented, at least they remembered, it's the thought that counts! =) Thank you guys!!!

LAST DAY!

Hehe.. Don't know why but I feeling extremely excited today. When I stepped into the office this morning, my heart just started beating very quickly. Feels like the day when I received prize for topping the class.

I'd sent out thank you emails just now to my colleagues, event company, PR agency, distributors etc. I received some replies and I felt very touched by them. I'd forwarded those replies to my gmail for remembrance. I just hope I didn't miss out anybody. Hee..

Just had lunch at Spring Court, ate dim sum. My colleagues gave me a DKNY watch and $50 Tangs Voucher!! Not bad eh?! Kekek..

Hmm.. I did not cry.. At least not yet. Think I be strong enough, it's not the end of the world. I'll distribute the Ferrero Rocher later at break time. I hope that they will remember me after I left.

2 more days..

Now that IAP is ending, I felt a little sad and bu4 se3 de2 about leaving the company. I'm really lucky to have colleagues so fun and friendly and who are very patient when you do things wrongly. I'll miss the times at MM.

I heard from my colleagues that it is very troublesome to extend my stay at MM, not that I want to stay lah, Audrey said approving me for internship goes all the way to our big boss at US. It is too much trouble, anyway I believe the whole of next month practically nobody will be in office. Everyone will be at US have meeting and before the US meeting, they are having some incentive trip to Gold Coast. So sad they did not invite me for the Gold Coast trip. =(

Hmm.. I somewhat secured my future already. I more or less have a job, just waiting to see is any local U will be taking me in, if not I'll start my working life.

This job that I'll be having, I'm still not sure what it's called and it has nothing to do with marketing at all. However, it's not a bad one considering that I won't be in the office all day long staring at the PC and I might get to travel and lastly no formal wear at all.. Ain't it good?

I believe most people will be shocked that I'll be starting my career with this job. Think the starting pay is not high, no fixed working hours, may work till midnight or early next morning, will be seeing lots of Thai and Sri Lankan workers. Hehe.. Am I scaring people now?

Oh well, I'll just let your imagination run wild. Update on this job again when I get the full details. =)